Today’s the Day
Let me bring you up to speed on my biggest obstacle to date. For the last few months I’ve been dealing with a back injury. My MRI shows one degenerative, one herniated and one bulging disc all clumped together in my lower lumbar region. To be quite honest my weight loss journey hit a massive road block. My mind refused to accept my current situation and I slipped. I started eating poorly and my motivation went straight out the window. I see people around me succeeding at there weight loss and physical fitness efforts and I’m jealous. Some days are better than others for me but just standing for 15 minutes starts to aggravate my back. I spend most of my time working at my computer or watching TV. To be honest I wanted control back. I wanted to run, lift weights, do Zumba and other workouts with my groups. Instead I’m worried about what happens if I do too much. I moved a little table with Kya on Sunday and I was hurting all day. It really plays with your mind. Especially since it took me years to be as active as I had become. Now I feel like I’m back at square one. Fat Kevin waiting to rise from the ashes and take over again. Lord, please don’t let that happen. Every day I pray for a Miracle. I want God to make things better. I want God to restore me. All the while I ask that He continue to make me the man He would have me be. Just as long as it lines up with what I want too. Do you see where I’m going with this blog post. This morning I took a long hard look at my situation. I’m the “No Excuses” guy making my own new excuses, As if I can’t trust God to guide me through this. I’ve tried to figure this out for the last two months and the only thing that I realized is, I can’t. God can. I’m Through wanting and I’m just going to trust. I’m trusting God is at work in me. I’m honestly leaning on Him today and my day already has been better. Todays Devotions really got me thinking about where I’m at in my journey and where I’m headed. Part of Psalm 23 says “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want”
Today I’m just trusting God. It’s amazing what God does when we release control. It’s not easy for me but today is looking good. I may not be winning the race or burning the candle at both ends but I’m following the light of my life. My shepherd.